Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Time will Tell........

On to the next topic, I love autumn! It brings some of my favorite songs to mind, September Morn by Neil Diamond, Autumn Leaves by Eva Cassidy and Fields of Gold by Eva Cassidy. It makes me want to bake bread,rake leaves and remember some times from childhood that warm my heart. (did you notice how my mood suddenly changed? OMG! ) Light a candle and embrace your fleeting youth. I did not expect to grow old but it has a firm hold on me now! I regret any comments I made in my youth regarding old folks,how stupid I was to think it was going to bypass me and I would remain forever young. So now for the moral of this story:
Respect your elders,they may be weird and drift from sane to insane at the drop of a hat,I believe that is because of all the wisdom and life experience that is crammed into our small craniums. We keep shifting it all around in there and sometimes it gets a bit jumbled when we share it with others. Smile at us and remember the same fate awaits you, one day you will feel a tap on your shoulder and it will be old age. It will come a callin' and will not go away,next thing you know....you're blogging about the craziest things! Growing old is not hard to do,it's hard to accept. Once you get past that it's just a matter of being you and not caring what some whippersnapper thinks(yeah,I'm old). I can be odd,say what I feel,be honest,or laugh hysterically ...at nothing! I could not do that when I was young,I was afraid someone would think I was not cool ( I wasn't,I was a nerd but I still tried to pretend I was!) So you can bank on one thing, my young friends,your degrees,accomplishments,and other self accolades will not be what you are remembered for, it's how you lived your life and the kindness,respect you have shown for others, that is the true measure of a life well lived.
How did all this wisdom get stuffed in my tiny head?
Friday, June 12, 2009
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Love the Ones Your With

No, our lives were not perfect ( I am speaking on behalf of all my dear cousins who had a good ole Holt boy for a father) There were turmoils and hard times for all that had dealings with the Holt/Williams clan. Lots of emotional conflicts and ghost of the past that filtered in and triggered many outbursts that sometimes did not end well. We have all endured them and if I may speak for all,we have turned out to be exceptional people! I don't think you will find too many people left in this harsh world that are as loving and sensitive as us Holt's. Yes I said it,we are wonderful folks that have weathered the mental issues without the help of a psychiatrist or psychoanalyst (for that would be a sin!) I think we turned out to be pretty cool! We are generous,caring,family oriented and most of us are hard workers that are willing to lend a hand if needed and trust in God for His guidance.
So what is the point? We have learned from these things and grown. I want to give us all a pat on the back for being tough,honest and understanding despite our past. We did not become serial killer's,nut cases,or any of the other things that most people use to defend themselves of their bad behaviour. We didn't blame our mother's or father's(maybe once in awhile) we just got on with our lives as best we could and were grateful for what we had. As a result I think we have started bonding with each other more over the past few years and I know I am starting to feel a little "clingy" as our family shrinks in size. And so that is my point! We need each other! Don't let petty things come between you and your family members. It is not worth it! We need to hold on to each other and treasure our time together. We have a gift,a big bunch of great people with a wild mix of issues that have managed to still love each other!
So here is a recap,it's okay to be a little nuts,deal with it and don't inflict it on other's. Now if you'll excuse me I think I will take my medication and take a nap! Love You!
Friday, April 10, 2009
How Cool is This?!
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Family

Growing older is proving to be quite a learning experience. Our family is getting smaller if you have not noticed,and I am finding with each passing day how important we are becoming to each other. Sure we have gone our separate ways in life but there is always a thread that keeps us linked and the past few months have been proof of how strong that thread is.
Uncle Ray is battling Alzheimer's and it has taken it's toll on him and the family,resulting in placing him at P.A Peterson in the alzheimer unit where Uncle Tut spent his final days. We have all dealt with the Williams/Holt personalities in one form or the other over the years and I must say what a delightful bunch they CAN be! But I have also seen the Jekyll-Hyde side as well and it can be quite frightening(ask Al)!
Charmer's,they are, those Holt boys! That is what makes these decisions so hard to make. We love the good side of them,but fear that terrible dark side that is associated with the disease. Now I don't totally blame Alzheimer's,I think if you factor in upbringing and other unknown trauma's of a tough childhood in the mix,we may be surprised they turned out as well as they did! I am saddened that we have lost Uncle Ray to this disease,but I am grateful it can be handled by people trained to deal with the situation and I pray that my cousins and dear Aunt Bessie can have some peace and comfort knowing they have done what's best for him and that is what God expects from us.
I can only hope that I can be there for any family member in their time of need and that they would be there for me as well. After all,that is why God made family units,to care for and love each other and share the burdens as well as the wonderful memories that we have all been given in this life. Maybe you cannot be by my side,but if I know I'm in your thoughts and prayers I will know that,and Uncle Ray will know that too! So say a prayer for him each day and ask God to give him a calm and peaceful spirit as he becomes accustomed to his new environment. Ask God to lead the people that care for him and let them see the Uncle Ray that is dear to our hearts. See the good,forget the bad and be grateful for a this wild mix of family we love! I wouldn't have it any other way. I love you all and if you haven't talked to someone in the family for awhile,go write a letter,send an email,post a comment on the website(yes I am still trying to get everyone to look at it once in a while!) http://www.holthotline.com
Send a comment in the guestbook or reply to this blog for Aunt Bessie and I will print them out and give them to her. If I have time to write this and you are reading it,take two minutes to send someone a thoughtful mention. It will make you feel soooooooo good! I promise.